14 They made their way under the protective cover of darkness. Five women with the barest of their belongings strapped to their backs in crop sacks and bundles made by tying the corners of sheets together. Satchels were slung over weary shoulders. Food was crammed into the pockets of aprons and skirts. Rolled strips of dried meat that would keep without having to be iced. Handfuls of dried beans and rice grabbed at the last minute. Rounds of bread, potatoes, and apples shared a hand-woven bag cinched at the top by a cord made from thick strands of woolen yarn. Six canteens stored clean drinking water. Leading their way was a boy of fifteen named Brenton Moore, who they knew from the market as being the blacksmith’s son, and because he bought their bread each morning for he and his father, when the rounds were fresh and hot from the kiln. They were hesitant to trust him at first. Because he was so young. What could he possibly know about the danger they were in? At his age? And did he truly realize his own jeopardy? The risk he was taking in aiding them? He insisted he understood, and that he told no one where he was going, not even his father. He promised that if he were caught sneaking back into the house, he would tell his father he’d been stuck in the outhouse with squirting bowels. That should do the trick, he told them, considering his father’s weak constitution; that would be the end of it. Besides. Who else was going to show them where to hide? Who else was willing to help them? No one. And so they followed him. Through the thick trees and brush of the northern wood. Where red clay dirt was replaced by dark fertile 98 A. Shockey earth fed rich by the swamp. Where tall pines were few and cypresses were plenty. Now and then they came across giant magnolia trees. But there was no time to stop and admire them and little point in wanting to, since it was the dead of night and they had only Brenton’s lantern to light their way. Their progress was slow and treacherous through the cypress stumps and boggy soil. Where their boots caught on roots beneath the muck and mire, causing them to stumble repeatedly. But Brenton insisted this was the safest route. No man on horseback could possibly maneuver the northern wood. Which was one reason the land was still uninhabited. For hours they walked without stopping to rest. Longing for the warmth and comfort of the homes they had been forced to leave behind. Shivering from the cold as they traversed acre after crowded acre. Mile after tiresome mile. When the swamp gave way to a stand of woods that was much easier to navigate, having flat grassy areas here and there between breaks among the trees, they couldn’t have been more relieved. Surer steps made for faster walking and a greater distance covered. Here were grassy knolls inhabited by ancient oaks that would one day shade cobblestone streets lined with colonial style homes, and spread their majestic limbs over park benches and flower garden paths, stately fountains, and historical monuments. But these things and the seasons of change that would bring them were many lifetimes away into the future. For now there existed the bleakness and the opposing beauty of an untamed land. Beyond the grassy break, they entered another wooded area that proved just as difficult to make their way through as the first they had crossed at the start of their journey. Jagged tree limbs slapped at their faces. Scratched their skin. Lower branches and briars caught on their coats and skirts. Snagged and tore holes in their stockings. Brenton did his best to help them through the tangle of brush by holding back limbs and stomping down the thick briars in their path. But they were all walking so fast, his kind efforts and his thoughtful consideration of them was of little help at best. They could not afford a slower pace. They were too afraid they might have followers. A group of men had been scouring the village for them. Banging on doors with angry fists and shouting at homeowners. Demanding in their questioning concerning the The Purple Rose: Into The Tap 99 women’s whereabouts. First and foremost, they wanted Caylin Breene, but did not know exactly where she lived, and so were going door-to-door in their efforts to locate her. It was Brenton who had rushed to her aid with news of the search. He had been awakened from sleep when the mob of men arrived at his father’s house, bellowing and beating on the front door. Brenton had quietly and fearfully slipped from his bed and went to hide in the pantry, to listen in on what the one man was saying to his father. What he heard sent him into a near blinding panic. With the men still at the door, he quietly grabbed one of the lanterns from the shelf in the pantry and went back to his room for his shoes. Then he climbed out a window on the backside of the house. He crept along the dark alley until reaching the square, and then ran to the smaller establishments just on the outer perimeter of the village. Where he knew Caylin Breene lived. In a small house, the white one with the green shutters and the wisteria growing beside the steps of the tiny front porch. Her name was one of five specifically mentioned to his father by the angry voice of the man heading up the search party. Brenton also heard this man declare Caylin Breene a witch. And he warned that anyone caught hiding her would be punished so severely, they would pray for a merciful death. Brenton had needed to hear no more. He knew Caylin Breene from the market. She sold him bread, and was nothing but kind to everyone who had dealings with her. She could not possibly be a witch. Witches were evil. Something Caylin Breene was not. Anyone with good sense knew she was a decent, respectable woman. He had never known a single soul to whisper as much as one ill word about her. Or her four friends, whom he could not, with clear conscience, leave behind. One by one, he and Caylin had helped the others gather what meager belongings they could carry. Then they had all fled the village on foot. Having decided against stealing horses from the livery. Doing so would have proved pointless, anyway. They couldn’t have made it through the marshy woods on horseback. But neither could the men who were after them. They could not be absolutely sure they had not been seen fleeing from the open junction at the northern end of the village, where they had broken into a wild run toward the northeastern 100 A. Shockey border of the woodland. Only after they had ducked into the cover of the trees did he dare strike a match and light the lantern. Then they were on their way. He knew of a place where they might be safe. A place he had once heard a story about while lurking in the dark alley behind the tavern and eavesdropping on the women who came outside to smoke and take a break from the noise of the music and the drunken men playing poker inside. He would sit crouched on his heels in the shadows. Sipping his root beer and listening to their private conversations. Ever curious. He learned all sorts of things this way. Including the fact that some of the women who worked at the tavern engaged in sexual acts with men in exchange for money. And there were some who stole money from poor drunken gents too incapacitated to notice a delicate hand reaching into the breast pocket of their jacket and carefully withdrawing their wallet or coin purse. Witnessing such acts, Brenton was both impressed and appalled. But even at his age, he understood the nature of survival. He related it to a balancing act. What was unfortunate for one was fortune for another. And in random or calculated acts of badness, some form of good often revealed itself in the end. Most of these women had hungry children at home to feed, and could not manage solely on a barmaid’s wages. Knowing this made it easy for Brenton not to judge them for the things he saw them do. On one particular night, while sitting in his usual spot of seclusion, he heard a new voice among those of the women whose voices and faces he was familiar with. Because of it, this night became one he would always remember. It was the night he poked his head out of the shadows and first saw Rebecca Sampson. A new girl recently hired to work at the tavern. She was very young, and very pretty. With long blonde hair she wore pulled up and curled around her delicate face, and dark eyes filled with mystery. She had a small pert mouth, to which she applied red lip stain and did so perfectly using one finger and without the aid of a hand mirror, which most of the women carried in a skirt pocket or waist pouch. She was the most beautiful creature he had ever set eyes on, and he fell in love with her right then and there. A few of the long-established barmaids were anxious to hear her story. Wanting to know all about her. They drew her further out The Purple Rose: Into The Tap 101 into the clean night air to sit with them on the wooden crates situated at the corner of the building, near the entrance to the alley. Brenton listened in as they talked. As Rebecca told them about why she and her older sister had recently relocated and were now living here. She said that the two of them had just come out of hiding only a week ago. After finally being cleared of wrongful charges filed against them by their stepmother, who, in a drunken rage, had murdered their father by stabbing him to death with a letter opener and then telling the authorities that it was his own daughters who had killed him. It was a scandalous tale that was eagerly eaten up by those who heard it, including Brenton, who was so shocked that his heart ached and the spit dried up inside his gaping mouth. Certain details concerning the exact location of where Rebecca and her sister had hidden themselves away for an entire month were not disclosed in her conversation with the other barmaids. Mainly due to the fact that she had been sworn to secrecy about it at the time by their father’s most trusted friend, who had led them there in the dark of night and made them swear on their very souls that they would never reveal it. However, Brenton was still able to piece together enough information so that he believed he might be able to find the place. Now, feeling almost certain he knew where it was, he led Caylin Breene and her dear friends to what once proved a safe haven for the girl who had stolen his heart. He thought about her now with each passing step. Believing that what he was doing was good, and right. He hoped one day to tell Rebecca about it. It would be a secret between them. Something only the two of them would share. If ever he got up the nerve to actually speak to her. He wanted to. And maybe when he returned, he would. For now he contented himself with visions of her lovely face. They trekked on. Crossing ten more acres of dense woodland, and finally emerging on the other side. They were exhausted, and breathing heavily from their furious, encumbered pace. They stopped a moment so Brenton could get his bearings. Holding the lantern out in front of him, he peered ahead, and saw through the darkness the shape of the old church. Or rather, its charred remains. It was the Lutheran Church of Saints. The place had been nearly completely destroyed by a fire that had occurred more than 102 A. Shockey twenty years before and the cause of which remained a mystery to this day. Not having the necessary funds to properly rebuild their sanctuary, its members had gone their separate ways, seeking out and attending services held at various other small churches scattered throughout the neighboring regions. Because the church had been completely abandoned after the fire, its grounds were overgrown with weeds and vines and thorny brush. Knee high in most areas. Brenton was sure they were all sharing similar thoughts concerning poisonous snakes and spiders and rabid vermin. Still, he led them forward. Crossing the grounds could not be avoided. As a safety precaution, he found a long stick and used it to beat at the bushes in their path and hopefully scare away whatever might be hiding there. With luck, they might avoid having a member of their party step on some unsuspecting creature that was capable of deadly retaliation. They crossed the churchyard without incident, and walked around the standing remains of the fire-ravaged structure itself, to the small cemetery behind it. Here, the women stood huddled together in the darkness as Brenton combed over the headstones and gravesites, using the lantern to cast light on them, one by one. There were no elaborate statues. Just simple flat slates either protruding upward out of the ground or lying flat and nearly buried beneath the weeds and soil. He saw nothing remarkable. Until he stumbled and nearly fell backwards over an exposed corner of the stone covering the gravesite he’d been searching for. Excitedly, he knelt on the ground and held the lantern close to the partially revealed slab. Then he grinned and scrambled to his feet again. “Over here!” he whispered urgently, and the young women came running. “What is it?” Caylin asked, also keeping her voice low. “This is it,” he told them. “We’ll have to move this stone. The tunnel is underneath. Look. See how it’s pushed aside a little?” They looked to where he indicated, then up again, and stared at him in disbelief. One of them, the youngest, looked absolutely mortified. All five of them started in on him at once. “A grave?” “…all this way, to a grave?” “…must be mad!” “I’m not going down there!” The Purple Rose: Into The Tap 103 “No way!” “It’s sacrilegious!” “…a corpse in there!” He was bombarded and heard everything in bits and pieces and was helpless to get a word in. “…and dark, and it’s probably wet down there, too.” “We’ll all catch pneumonia and die!” “…don’t have much clothing as it is. Everything will be ruined.” “Our food won’t keep. Where are we going to get more food?” “…a snake’s den for sure.” “I should turn you into a troll!” Caylin whirled round on the one who said this and admonished her sternly. The way one might reprimand an unruly sibling. “Geva, please! You’ll do no such thing. Now let’s all just calm ourselves and—” “You can’t be serious,” one of the other girls said to her. “Really, Caylin. You don’t mean for us to stay here. Do you?” Caylin sighed. Closed her eyes a moment. Took a breath. “Caylin?” Caylin snapped her eyes open. Said nothing. And stared down at the exposed part of the covering stone, a section of it that they could all see, and sighed again. More heavily this time. It was evident by the expression on her face that she was just as troubled by it. One of the girls stepped forward and touched Caylin’s arm. “Caylin? It isn’t wise. Please reconsider. Staying here? In your condition?” Roughly Caylin pulled away. But then looked at her friend apologetically. Obviously frustrated. “I’m perfectly aware of my condition, Dellia.” “Excuse me,” Brenton managed to cut in, regarding Caylin Breene with new concern. “Are you ill?” “She’s pregnant,” the one called Maddy blurted out in exasperation. Brenton blushed. “Oh.” “And not by choice.” “Please, Lana,” Caylin said. 104 A. Shockey “What did you go and tell him that for?” Geva whispered harshly. “Why don’t you tell the whole world about it?” “I won’t…say anything to anyone,” Brenton offered kindly. He fidgeted. Embarrassed. “It doesn’t matter,” Caylin said. She waved a hand. Looked pained. Tiredness was taking its toll on her. There were dark half moons beneath her eyes, and a slump to her thin shoulders. “The world will know anyway once the baby comes,” Lana said, making a face at Dellia. “No one will care. Only we care. This is our family. And we must stick together.” She looked at the faces of the other girls, one by one. “If Caylin stays here, she can’t do so alone.” Measuring. “The lot of you can do what you please. Risk your lives, and for what? A handful of men who are blinded by hate and their own stupidity? Who hunt us down like mongrel dogs? I will not die by the hands of those men.” Her eyes filled with tears she blinked hard to keep back. “My life is my own. I will live it as I please, or I will end it of my own volition.” Everyone stared at her. Deeply touched. Moved. And frightened. No one dared say it but all were thinking it. Suicide? And the resolute lift of her chin and the conviction showing in her eyes let them all know she meant what she said. “Lana, you mustn’t say such terrible things,” Geva said, her young face a mask of worry and fear. Lana looked at her. Her own expression softened. But her resolve did not yield. She was tough, this one, Brenton thought. With dark hair and even darker, brooding eyes. Lending even more evidence of her inner strength and will. She carried herself with confidence. Holding her head high and her shoulders back. Young Brenton had never seen or met a woman so determined to hold her place in the world. She would stand her ground no matter what. Caylin put a hand on her hip and sighed. “I suppose we should have a look.” “It won’t be pretty down there,” Brenton warned. “I don’t expect it will,” she replied. Lana stepped forward. “No lifting for you,” she told Caylin. She turned. But her asking was not necessary. Maddy and Geva were already dropping their packs and bundles to come forward and help with the moving of the stone. The Purple Rose: Into The Tap 105 Brenton snapped into action. He passed the lantern to Caylin. “We’ll need two on each side.” He knelt. Geva came around and joined him. He tried desperately not to look at her undergarments as she hiked up her skirt and tucked the gathered material between her parted thighs to get it out of the way, so she was able to bend and move her legs more freely as she squatted beside him. On the opposite side of the grave, Maddy and Lana did the same. Brenton immediately averted his gaze. Shifting his eyes to the covering stone itself. “We’ll need to dig this corner out first,” he said. The women moved in closer beside him, and they all set to work. Tugging and pulling with both hands at the wiry grass and weeds. Then with their fingers they loosened and dug some of the black soil out from around the corner of the thick gray slab. Their movements helped to warm their bodies against the sharp chill in the brisk night air. Brenton sensed that these women had been through something big together. Something that made them the close friends they were. What this something was, he might never know. Presuming the ugly rumors about the five of them to be untrue. He couldn’t believe what he’d heard about them. That they were witches. Given, he did not really know them. But these were good and decent women as far as he could see. Putting aside Geva’s threat to turn him into a troll. He thought more about that. She couldn’t really do such a thing, could she? She had been frightened when she’d blurted out this bit of nonsense. Those men were wrong. They had to be. Didn’t witches have ugly hairy moles on their noses? And drooping jowls with deep crevices in their gray sagging faces? Didn’t they have long grimy fingers with pointy black nails? And didn’t witches wear ratty old garments with long sleeves in order to hide the festering sores on their arms? Sores they got while brewing their potions that spewed onto their skin as they stirred and stirred their black bubbling pots of poison? And didn’t they carry a casting stick with them everywhere they walked? And didn’t they stink something awful, because they didn’t like to bathe? Didn’t they smell like rancid meat? Or cow dung? Or sour pig’s vomit? “I think you can stop now,” Lana told him. 106 A. Shockey Brenton paused. Looked up. Without realizing, he had been digging furiously in the dirt around this edge of the slab. Now they were all staring at him. He clenched his fists to keep his hands from shaking. He had succeeded in scaring himself. He couldn’t look at any one of them directly. They would see. How much of a boy he still was in comparison to the man he had yet to become. Why didn’t he just ask them? He wanted to. He needed to know. He opened his mouth. Tried to speak, but couldn’t. His tongue felt paralyzed. A dead lump in the well of his mouth. Lana leaned closer and peered at his face. Frowning, and wondering what was suddenly the matter with him. She touched his right shoulder. “Brenton?” When he didn’t answer (because he couldn’t, no matter how badly he wanted to), she leaned even closer to look into his eyes. She was so close, he could feel her warm breath on his cheek, and smell the dirt she had accidentally smeared on this side of her face when she’d pushed back her unruly hair. Then her expression changed, and he knew she saw it. What was in him that would not come out in words. And what she did next and what she said surprised him beyond any means of comprehension. She removed her hand from his shoulder and lightly touched his cheek. “There now, Brenton,” she said. With such tenderness, he felt like a small boy. Like a child being carefully tended to. Soothed. Comforted. “I suppose we do owe you something for bringing us all this way. We do feel your…reaching for explanation. But the less you know, the safer you will be, if you are caught when you get back and those men question you about us. You won’t be able to tell them anything.” She touched a lock of his hair. Smoothed it back and tucked it gently behind his ear. He could not look away from her. Listening. Mesmerized. “You sense our difference, and it frightens you. But you needn’t be afraid. Because when you leave here tonight, and you return home and creep into your bed…you will sleep a deep sleep that will help ensure your safe keeping.” She peered deep into his eyes. And he felt her touch him somehow on the inside. Somewhere in his center. As if with an invisible finger that left behind a slight impression of odd warmth. The Purple Rose: Into The Tap 107 “And when you wake, you will feel refreshed, and well and rested. You won’t remember the events of this night. You won’t remember bringing us here. Nor will you remember how to find this place. You won’t even remember the men who came to your father’s house, or that they did so. Your father will tell you about them in the morning. He’ll be amazed that you slept through all the noise they made banging on the door. The two of you will have your eggs and bread and milk, just like always. Together at the little wooden table in the corner of the kitchen. All warm and safe and sound.” She drew in a deep, silent breath. Then pursed her lips and blew the air gently out of her lungs and into his face. As softly as a baby’s breath. His eyelids fluttered. Closed. Opened again. He blinked. Dazed. Disoriented. As if he had been dozing the entire time she had been speaking to him in that hushed, soothing tone. Now she took his hands. Stood, and drew him up with her. He swayed on his feet. The shadows and the yellow light from the lantern spun round and round him, making him dizzy. He blinked his eyes again. Focused. Steadied himself. “What’s…happening?” he muttered. Lana smiled. “We’re saying goodbye.” “What? But…we were…doing something…weren’t we?” He frowned. Swayed. Caught himself. “Moving the…something.” “We’ll manage the stone,” Lana said. “It’s time for you to go now.” She turned him around by the shoulders. “Home, young Brenton,” she whispered, just behind his right ear. “Go home.” And he did. Forgetting his lantern, he walked along in the darkness. Not once did he stumble. Nor did he lose his way. Not even in the crowded wood, where the trees blocked out the moonlight, and the brush was so thick, he could have easily been swallowed up by it. The path he traveled now was invisible in the physical sense, but perfectly outlined inside his head. And he went as easily as if he possessed a built-in compass and an ingrained map. The closer he got to home, the more of what he’d done, who he’d been with, and where he’d gone, gradually faded into a gray haze he could not see through. More and more was engulfed by the haze, and more and more forgotten as he walked. The details left him, one by one, with every passing step. 108 A. Shockey Later, when he noticed one was gone from the shelf in the pantry, his father would ask him about the lantern that was missing. If he knew where it was. He would say he did not, and together they would spend an hour hunting through the house and then the barn for it. He would not remember where he had left it. With Caylin Breene. |
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